Hello Eva i've not been on here in a long time, but i'm here now,its been a year today but it still feel like it was yesterday to me, i miss you so much words can never say just how much you were and still are my BABY GIRL no one will ever take your place sometimes i wish i could just see you or talk to you,but i know i cant, and i know that you are very happy were you are,and i know that your mom and grandmother are taking good care of you, and really i know you deep down you wouldn't come back if you could and i dont really blame but it is just so hard here without you, i found aletter that you wrote me the other day and as i read it i broke down i still cant beleive your are really gone i dot guess i want to beleive it, it is just so hard, ive said before that it gets easier but god i was so wrong because it dont i miss you as much today as the day you left us and it has not let up yet and i dont think it will ,i know ive not been to the grave yard yet but i just cant bring myself to go up there its been a long time since ive been up there, i know i need to go but i cant go, i told someone the other day i would follow you to the ends of this world but i could not follow you to your grave, made someday i will go but for now i just cant its to hard well i guess i'llgo for now everybody sends there love and they miss you as for me i will love and miss you forever and ever YOU ARE MY LITTLE BABY GIRL .and you will stay in my heart and on my mind always. no one will ever take your place.
Hey baby girl, it's been awhile,actualy it's been a year, and it has been the worse year of my life.I really can't believe it's been that long, but I've came to realize that I'm never without you.Your always on my mind, I talk to you in my prayers, and I see you in my dreams.It comforts me to know that I'm never alone.Your there for me in my times of need and your by my side no matter where I go, and that makes my love for you grow stronger with every day, and I want to thank you.I always said you were my guiding light, and that's still true even after your death. I never really came to terms with your death and to be honest it still doesn't seem real to me.I still do the same thing's that we used to do together, but I'm just going through the motion's, my heart isn't in it.I once told somebody that you took my heart and my world with you, and never has that seemed so true.It's like I can't have fun anymore, and the saddest part is that I really don't want to.Everything I do seems wrong because your not there to support me, nothing has any meaning.I mean I went and finally got my G.E.D., and I know you would have been so proud and happy for me, but I don't feel either one.When you left us, I gave up on everything, I gave up on life.I was afraid of getting to close to anyone because I feared they'd be taken away from me to, which that only hurt me more, because I did lose people I cared about, I gave up the one guy that I loved, because I was afraid, and now I wish I had everything to do over again.I've made so many mistakes since you left, thing's that can never be undone.But hopefully you'll stay by my side and give me the strenght to work everything out.I really need you right now baby girl. I love you my girl, and when I remember all of the times I've had with you, I'll be smiling through my tears. I'll see you in my dreams, and talk to you in my prayers until the day comes when I can hold you again, but 'til then, dance with the angels, and walk with God baby girl. I love You.
Eva its just me again i thought i would get on here to tell you i love and miss you so very much and i know you wouldn't want me to be so sad but it is so hard to handly sometimes i dont know if i can or not but i know that you are in mheaven with your mommy and grandmother, and i know that you are all three watching over us all, i know that you all would tell that it was going to be ok but it really dont feel like it sometimes, well i'll close for now and i'll keep you all three in my heart and on my mind everyday of my life, God keep them in your hands and help the ones of us they left behind to find the way to go on without them they are truely loved and missed a great deal down here on earth, and someday we will all be together up there. I LOVE AND MISS YOU MY BABY GIRL bye for now.
hey baby girl its just me here wanting to say i love and miss you very much and no one will ever take your place in my heart, so keep on watching over everybody from up in heaven and tell brenda and your grandmother that i love and miss them very much to well i'll go for now all my love baby girl.
Happy 19 Bday girl sorry im a little late. and today is your dads bday so im wishing all the best your dad misses you so much we all miss you so much but your always in our minds everyday and we love you very much.
well b4 i start to cry ill say one more thing I LOVE YOU
Love your bro Wes
IN LOVING MEMORY OF EVA RENEA STIDHAM AND ELIZABETH ASHLY (STIDHAM) WE LOVE YOU AND MISSED BY ALL WHO LOVE YOU
Hey Baby Girl, it's been awhile.I'm sorry, I've been trying to keep myself busy, I've had alot on my mind lately, and I've been in a funky kinda mood.But oh well, "all shall pass".Right? Man I hate coming on here, because no matter how many times I promise myself I won't cry, I alway's do.I'm sorry my girl, I know you wouldn't want me to cry and I know I should take comfort, knowing that your now residing with your momma and with the Lord, but it still hurt's, and I'm afraid the hurt ain't gonna stop. Well my girl, I guess I'll cut off here. I Love you, and miss you so much my girl. Can't wait to see you again....
hi sis i love you some mush i miss you it seem some time that you just stading be hind me and all i got to do is trun around and you be there but you never are but i think you are in some way well baby i got to go bu the buy can you belive conner will be 1 on the 29 well love you night
TO MY BABY GIRL; YOU CAN SHED TEARS THAT SHE IS GONE OR YOU CAN SMILE BECAUSE SHE HAS LIVED, YOU CAN CLOSE YOUR EYES AND PRAY THAT SHE'LL COME BACK OR YOU CAN OPEN YOUR EYES AND SEE ALL THAT SHE HAS LEFT. YOUR HEART CAN BE EMPTY BECAUSE YOU CAN'T SEE HER ANYMORE OR YOU CAN BE FULL OF THE LOVE YOU AND HER SHARED YOU CAN TURN YOUR BACK ON TOMORROW AND LIVE IN YESTERDAY OR YOU CAN BE HAPPY FOR TOMORROW BECAUSE OF YESTERDAY YOU CAN REMEMBER HER AND ONLY THAT SHE'S GONE OR YOU CAN CHERISH EVERY LITTLE MEMORYYOU HAVE OF HER AND LET HER LIVE ON,YOU CAN CRY AND CLOSE YOUR MINDBE EMPTY AND TURN YOUR BACK OR YOU COULD DO WHAT SHE WOULD WANT;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;;; SMILE, OPEN YOUR EYES, LOVE, AND GO ON. EVA I KNOW THAT YOU ARE IN HEAVEN WITH YOUR MOM AND YOUR GRANDMOTHER AND I KNOW THAT IS WHAT THE THREE OF YOU WOULD WANT BUT SOMETIMES IT IS REALLY HARD. WELL GOT TO GO I LOVE AND MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH TELL YOUR MOM AND GRANDMOTHER THAR I LOVE AND MISS THEM VERY MUCH , SOMETIMES I THINK IF YOU ALL THREE WHERE HER WITH ME IT WOULD BE ALOT EASIER,BUT I KNOW THAT CAN'T HAPPEN SO I LOVE YOU ALL.TALK TO YOU LATER. MY SWEET BABYGIRL/
hay baby girl its been a long time since i've been on here but i'm here now. i wish you were here so i could talk to you in person i could really use you right now because sometimes i think i'm going crazy, and i'm pretty sure there are a few others that think i am going crazt to but o well, tell your mom and grandmother i said hi and that i love and miss them very much, words cant explain the way i miss the three of you, there is so much i would like to say to you all but i cant because you are not here, but that was the god had it planed, well i guess i'll go for now i love you all. later babe.
hey baby girl its been a while since i've been on here , but i thought i would stop in and check on your post i have to keep it going, you dont know how much me and dad, really miss you sometimes it all seems like a dream, but i know its not, tell your mom we said happy birthday, and we were thinking of her and you on that day, sat. july 17. i thought the pain would get easier but i dont know if it will or not its been well over a year since you left us but sometimes it seems like yesterday, well baby tell your mom and grandmom that we miss them and love them to, and to keep there eyes on the family because we all really need it, and we miss and love you very much i'll go for now until later we love you all very much.talk to you later baby girl.
hey Eva i know this has took me a long time to write its been over a year but i just couldnt do it till now. I miss you so much sometimes i just wish i would hear your voice just one more time. You was there for me throught everything and i wanted to thank you for that i could alway turn to you for anything i needed at any time you was my best friend in the world and when i lost you i lost apart of my heart. That will never be back again. Madison is getting so big i wish so bad u would see her now i tell her about you all the time and show her your pictures i am going to make sure that she now how beautiful and wonderful you was. And how much you was loved bye everyone that knew you. And now how much you was there for her mommy. I miss you so much eva and it seems like it get worse everyday. I will never forget how u touched my heart. You are always going to be with me in my heart forever.
Eva, it has been a while since i have been on here. i still try to visit your grave as often as i can. i miss you so much. it seems like most people have quit talking about you but not all of us. Josh and i talked about you lastnight in the park. This is fire school weekend and i know that you would have loved to have been here. (i guess you were in heaven looking down on all the hot guys in turnout gear) i just want you to know that i havent forgotten you, and that ill always remember our little talks. i thought about you and i trying to run the buffer at work, trashing all the girls we thought were prettier than us, and all that crazy stuff that we did together. i miss you like crazy and you will always hold a special place in my heart- you will always be the sister that i never had. i love ya girl
HEY GIRL IT HAS BEEN A LONG TIME AND I'M SORRY I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW THAT WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU ALOT AND SOME DAY WE WILL SEE YOU AGAIN IN HEAVEN PEOPLE MIGHT GET MAD FOR WHAT I'M ABOUT TO SAY BUT YOU ARE BETTER OFF NOW INSTEAD OF BEING IN THIS OLD ROTTEN WORLD THE WAY THINGS ARE NOW YOU CAN'T WALK DOWN THE STREETS WITHOUT RUNNING INTO A DOP HEAD OR A DRUNK WELL I HAVE TO GO NOW I WILL BACK LATER C-YA IN HEAVEN AND SAVE ME A PLACE IN THE ANGEL BAND
Post by LittleBit on Sept 17, 2004 17:55:54 GMT -5
Hey Eva, it is Black Gold weekend and raining like crazy. Still a crowd. You know what we said about that your last black gold. Just wanted to drop in and say i still love ya and have missed you unusually bad today. It seems the love of my life may actually still be the love of my life and i only wish you could be here with me to share my excitement. Its funny the little things you said that still come to mind every time that i am with him. you told me that things would work out and i guess that you were right. I just had to be patient. And you know what the funny thing is, Everyone else loves you when you love yourself. i think that you told me that once and i didnt know how true it was. For me to be the "big sister" so to speak, you did teach me a few things. things arent really that different here. Kenny is daddy, Leonard has a new woman, Bucky is still single and on the market, and Josh is---well, Josh is Josh. Wish you were here sometimes, but wouldnt put you through the hell of life. Just watch out for me. Dont know if i can handle losing him again. You told me that you never lose a TRUE LOVE and i sure hope that you are right. You know my universe revolves around him. He doesn't speak of you often, but does occasionally mention "Little Eva" you are always in our presence if only in mind while we are together. You will forever be a part of Me (and him)
hey baby girl, its been a while since i've been on here its been almost 2 years since you left us and it still seems like yesterday you are still such a big part of us and always will be, when you left us you left a big empty place in our hearts that will never be filled, you were our baby girl, the little girl we will never have, you were our daughter and always will be we love and miss you so very much no one will ever no just how much ,tell your mom and grandmother i love and miss them just as much, i'll go for now love you all.
hey baby girl i just wanted to say that i love and miss you so very much,im just sitting here thinking of you but of course that never changes im always thinking of you ,i've not went to the graveyard yet, i just cant bring myself to go up there i know i should but i just cant, its been a long time since i've been up there,i could have followed you to the end of the earth but i just cant follow you to your grave i'm sorry but i know you would understand, i would love to see you and talk to you, but i would'nt bring you back here if i could,i know someday in heaven i will see you again, well i got to go tell your mom and grandmom i love them and miss them to,youare my baby girl, love you all,