Sis I just wanted to say what I should have said to you over and over I love you and I respect you. You were always like my sister just the other day i texted you and told you to talk to me I was depressed and as always you wrote me back. And asked if I was ok ! I just wish I could have been there to hold you and tell you that it was going to be ok and I love you and that god would take care of you. I never left without you telling me you loved me and telling me to call you and now although I know I will not be getting that text back this time I have texted you to tell u how special you are and what a great wonderful loving person you are there no way not a doubt in my mind that right now you are in heaven watching me write this for you so I am blowing you a kiss not a good bye kiss but a kiss until next time. I love you and you will never be forgotten please talk to me in my dreams and ease my mind until I see you again!!!! Love you cousin kayleigh
I couldn't sleep so I thought I would try to talk to you in the only way I know how to know I just want you to know when I wake up I see you and when go to bed I talk to you even though you are not physically here with me I know you are the reason I'm making it through this I can feel u in my heart I have vivid little moments where I actually feel like I can feel you breathing on my shoulder and it comforts me. I think about how funny you were and how you always smiled and I just can't let those thoughts go even though you were my cousin in my eyes you were my sister my left side. And today I laid half of me down to rest with you in peace until god brings us back together I just can't explain enough to you how much I want to see you standing in front of me and just run and grab you lift you up and hold you I miss you more than you know but I know I need to be strong for you and make sure I do everything the way you would have until we meet again I will leave it at this just know that you are not alone I promise half of my soul is laying right in that casket with you hugging you and I will never let go I will see you soon I love you!!'
I love you sis today im turning 27 and i would love to have you hear with me everyone has told happy birthday but im still missing it from you. I miss u more than words can explain!!! Im putting a cross up for you tomorrow i will make it almost as beautiful as you i love and miss u dearly love always your cousin/sister kayleigh!!!
Post by Kayleigh/kk on Dec 30, 2013 11:15:14 GMT -5
I love and miss u more than you know I just had to come to look at all the pictures again and tell u I love you I am making a cross to put by the road and trying to imagine how you would have made one for me and ways you would have decorated it. No flowers no cross nothing could ever be good enough for you I love and miss you terribly I wish I could just have you back for one day. Love always kk
Post by Kayleigh/kk on Dec 31, 2013 19:26:39 GMT -5
I just can't stand the thought of going into the new year without you knowing when I want to talk to you I can't hear your voice and when I want to see you having to just see your grave. I'm tore all to pieces I have cried so much I don't know how much more I can handle. I have tried to sleep through the beginning of this new year without you but I can't sleep I covered my window because I can't stand to even look at the ground anymore just the thought of you being outside and alone I feel like I can hardley breath. You were always there for me and I feel like I let you down I wasn't in the car to stop u from wrecking. But I hope you know I would trade you places any day! You were an amazing person and I would give my life to give yours back just so you can be with your kids and have the family that you wanted you were to young and beautiful for this to have happened and I know everything happens for a reason but I just can't imagine what would be so important he would hafe to take you from us I love you sis just had to talk to you... Love always kk