Hey this is nay and i just wanted to say that diana was a great person and a good friend to me. she help me out when ever she could and i thank her for that. she always made me laugh. she is in a better place now and one day we all will see her again. i miss you and hope you are here with us watching over us.
Me and Iris had a long talk last night. I did not know you were so concerned about me. Diane, I love you, and although this is very hard, somehow, I will do my best to make it through. Maggie put a good poem on about you, I think Joey should put his on as well.
Post by crazyclown on Nov 19, 2004 12:25:26 GMT -5
now latona... you know that this isnt a poem thread HAHAHAHAHA . nah i will when i get a chance. but lisa honey you are the best thing that ever happened to me... i wish i could take your pain but im your husband all i can do is share it. so i just wanted to say thank you baybay for being my baby you are such a wonderful person and a lot of people love you besides me... thats fine though i dont care to share ya. love you baby
Diane, Here I am, up again, afraid to go to sleep, afraid to see what lies within my dreams. I sure didn't want to see you die Diane, that is so hard on me, it just keeps repeating itself in my mind. I still hear everyone crying, I still see your face, it haunts me so. I know it had to be done though, it still disturbs me. I just hope what you said is true. I am trying to turn a new leaf over, but having trouble. Got a lot of obstacles to overcome. I feel like I am going made sometimes but oh well, I guess thats life. Life stinks Diane. I told you that before, it just stinks. I will try and think about what you said though and wanted for me.
Hey diana it's me maggie, I jsut wanted you to know that jerry is doing ok an he has started back to work an coy an nick are growing an happy as can be. We miss you so much an we love you more than life its self. Trin told me the other day that her nana has got her a good looking man up there in heaven (lol) she misses you so much to, but she is doing good too an latona an donnie an lisa an joey are as well. It's just going to take some time an it's going to be so hard when all these holidays roll around to see that you are gone an not here with us to celebrate. We are going to celebrate an do as you would have if you were here to let you know that things haven't changed with all the holidays exept that you are in heaven watching over us all. Diana there will never be a day go by that you will be missed. An nay thinks about you all the time she says an she missed your laughs an cutting up together with us. Well I guess thats all I have to say for now but that We miss you an love you an hope you are having a great time up there in heaven with your family.
Love You Always Jerry,Maggie,Jerry Jr your little snookers an nick your little sante nick
Hi Diane, it's Mandie. Lisa told me about the board and I looked at it one night and haven't been able to post yet. I'm still over Paintsville doing clinicals. I can't wait to come home. I still can't believe you're not here. I miss calling Lisa and you would answer the phone and say "She's still in the bed, but she's been asleep long enough" and you would go and wake her up. I'd get so tickled at you. I know in my heart of hearts you're in Heaven watching down over everyone. I worry about Lisa sometimes, she loves and misses you so much. I know you're watching over and protecting her. I wish none of this ever happened. But I know you're home and sitting up there smiling down on everyone.
Well, Diane, I better go. I've got to finish packing up my stuff to head back to Paintsville. I love you and miss you. Mandie
Hey mom Its me..havent Posted in a few days cause i have been sick. Everything is still the same. I miss you so much. I wanted to walk up and see you the other day to talk to you about the truck me and Joey might be getting but i didnt make out there. I stopped out to see snookers and he was not feeling well so i stayed out there with him. I plan on walking up there tomorrow tho. Your flowers are still living i cant believe that. After it has frosted almost everyday since they have been out there. They are still alive . Dad made it home today. He seems really happy to be back. I am glad he's back. We also went and bought a Christmas tree today. I got so excited about it. Its really pretty. We were trying to figure out if you threw the decorations away last year when you threw the tree away but no one can remember lol. So i guess we are going to go look in the shed and see if we cant find some. I know Christmas was your favorite time of the year. You would always sit and listen to That elvis christmas tape that you had. I am going to try and find it so that i can play it for you. Its going to be so hard christmas. But i know that you are going to be here with me. I just hope i have the strenght to make it through it. Joey has given me so much strenght i dont know if he can give anymore. If it wasnt for him i dont know what i would do. I just hope he dont get tired of me. I love him so much. And i am so thankful for him. I am so glad that you got to be at our wedding . You were so pretty. I remember looking at you and seeing you try to fight back the tears but i seen you. I know that it was tears of joy tho. I just wished that you would have got to be around when i had my first child. But i know that you will be right in the room with me when i have it. I love you mom and miss you. I am going to go now But i'll be back tomorrow i love you.
Hey mommy, Just wanted to write you a quick note to let you know that I put the tree up today lol theres no decorations on there yet but i think i am going to let wendy put them on there just like you always did. And i think i wanna put blue lights on there. But i am not for sure yet. Anyways i have been trying to clean up the house some and get all the clothes washed up before thanksgiving. I got alot of stuff to do tomorrow. Me and joey is getting that truck i know that you were there to help us get it. I could feel you. Thanks for giving joeys dad that extra push lol i always knew that you would end up helping us get a car. We will never forget you being the only one that would even try to help us the last time . But we gotta go to the bank and get the money and go to the court house and the insurence place. I never knew there was so much running you had to do when you bought a car lol. Then after we get all that done i gotta start baking the cakes for thanksgiving and start on the ham rolls. Lord knows and so do you that, that takes me forever lol. Me,Jerry and maggie were the ones that went and done the shopping for all the food. All Jerry wanted to buy was macaroni LOL but i think we ended up doing really good. We got everything that we could think of. I hope everything goes good for us tho on thanksgiving. I know you'll be here with us but it still wont be the same. Its going to be hard sitting down to eat without you. I miss you so much. I wished you could be here with us in person. But i know your in a better place. Speaking of that. Reda's mommy died today. She is now up there with you. I hope you two get to meet. Cause if reda's mom is anything like her i know that you'll love her. She also got to go peacefully just like you. So that was another prayer answered. Cancer is just killing so many people these days. will it ever end? At least Reda's mom is no longer suffering just like you. I didnt think that she would live much longer after you died. And i dont really know why. Thats just how i felt. But mommy i got to go for now but never forever. Its time to get Joey up for work. And yes i will tell him to be careful :-) I love you so much and i miss you more and more everyday.
Hey my mommy just want to get on to tell you happy thanksgiving. And that i love you and miss you so much. We got the truck today. Its going to take a while to get use to driven it tho lol. I think everything is in order for the diner tomorrow. I made the ham rolls tonight. You would be proud i sit there all by myself and did it ;D... I would have never known how to do it tho if you had not taught me. I think that i am going to be ok and make it through this holiday. Its just so hard without you. I think about you all the time. Day and night. I even dream about you. But i guess thats just normal. I love you mom. I am going to go to bed now. I'll wait for you in my dreams. I love and miss you.
Hello diana it's me maggie I wanted to call an tell you Happy Thanksgiving this morning. . But I said it to you out loud so you could here me in heaven you will probally have the best dinner than any of us up there. It's not going to be the same when we go down your house to eat, it's goingt to be hard to not see you there feeding the baby's what ever they want an we put our Christmas Tree us last night an it's also going to be hard on Christmas the most to see you hand out all those exspensive gifts you use to buy for us all. We love you so much an miss more than anything If I could give any thing to have you here with us today I would. It just don't seem the same going to your house an not seeing you there with you cig. and a cup of coffee ever morning. The kids are growing like weeds an snookers is sick right now he has a bad caugh an weezing really bad I took him to the doctor they give some medicine an went an got him an breathing machine just as you would have wanted me to. Nick is trying to crawl now an he is getting so big. Jerry's hood flew up on his mustang the other day an chip a peace off of it an bent a peace on it an he is really up set over it but my daddy is going to fix it for him. He said that he wish that he would have had it fixed up so you could have seen it but i know you can see it very well now up there from heaven an very proud of his work he has done to it. Well I guess I better go I have to go help lisa on the cooking.
With lots of hugs an kisses an very many misses your family Jerry, Maggie, Jerry Jr, Nick
Hey lisa.. its mel.. first off i wanted to say im soooooo sorry to hear about diane.. its hard to believe that she is gone.. i thought the world of her. when i found out about it i broke down and started crying and told mom that we should have came out to the house to see her.. sorry i didnt make it to the funeral.. mom and erica wanted to come so i decided to keep jordan for them. they was gonna bring him but he is too young to understand stuff like this.. but if ya need anything you know how to get ahold of me.. tell your dad im sorry and im here if he needs anything.. love ya all and talk to ya soon....
Hey Mel. Thanks alot. You know mom thought the world of all of you.. Most of all Ed... She always said that Ed was like a brother to her. I am going to have to make it down there to see you all. But once agin thanks Mel if i need anything i'll let you know.. Love ya
Hey mom its me. Just wanted to let you know that thanksgiving went good here at the house. Everyone was happy and know one faught. Mamaw talked about you alot. But besides that everyone was ok. I tried so hard to be strong and not think about you alot yesterday but i couldnt help it. I cryed most of the day. Everytime i would fight the tears away and got it to were i wasnt going to cry. It would hit me agin. It was just so hard without you. I had never had to do that by myself and really i didnt i had latona and maggie but it still wasnt the same. I needed you. I bet you had the best diner of your life yesterday. I am glad for that. I just know that Christmas is going to be a million times as hard. Cause Christmas was your favorite time of the year. i just dont know what i am going to do without you. I try so hard. But sometimes i just feel like i cant go on without you. But i know i have to cause that is what you would have wanted. Thats what keeps me going. Knowing thats what you would have wanted. And i know that i have to be here for Joey,Jerry,Donnie,Dad, and most of all the babies. I just hope that i make you proud mom. Thats my main goal in life. I want to have a healthy child someday and graduate from college but i want to make you proud too. Me and joey got most of the Christmas shopping done today. We just like a few more. But we got all the babies something today thats the most important. I am going to go for now mom but i'll be back to talk to you soon. I Love you and miss you more and more each day.
Diane, Trinity went to church with Iris Friday, she got saved, she said she felt you all through out the church. They annointed her and prayed. I am really proud of her. Iris just said all of the sudden, she just looked at her, and said, "I wanna go." and Iris felt like it was her duty to take her. God bless my babies heart. I made four dishes for the Thanksgiving dinner, including that family fav. "fruit salad". I also made fresh green beans just the way you like em, deviled eggs, and some taco dip. But I forgot to bring the chips. I don't think I wanna celebrate Christmas this year, maybe get the kids a few presents, but no big up to do. It just don't seem the same, and I don't like Christmas anyways, it's too much stress. I've not had many good christmas's , and it seems a waste of time, to try and have one now. I helped Lisa clean up, we ate at 3 and had everything put away by 4. It's funny, everyone was there, the common staples that come, and yet, in amongst all of the chaos, it still felt barren and empty.
Hey mom i know thats its been a while since i have gotten to post. But i got a job now. Its the one i told you about right before you got real bad. I work 6 days a week. Its not to bad it will give us a little extra money for Christmas. I also got everything worked out at the college. I can start back in Jan. With no problem. I am going to try and take 12 hrs. I'll have a full day then. School then work lol. I know if it gets to be to hard tho you will be right there to give me that little extra push that i need. Jerry went back underground agin. I know how bad you didnt want him to do that. You would always say i have one boy underground i dont want both of you to be. But he did it. He's making real good money doing it tho. I told him to be careful and i reminded him of what happend to donnie. But besides that jerry,maggie,snookers,and nicky nick is doing good. You would be so proud of snookers he can say anything that you can lol. and nick is crawling and sitting up be himself. There all growing so fast. I am kinda worried about Donnie so if you can just let him know there you are still here with us. Give him the little signs that you give me and maggie. Everytime trin see's me outside she always hollers at me and tells me that she loves me. She talks about you alot. And she misses you so much. She wants to be like you and go to "brother Jacks" as she says church. I told her that it was good for her to go to church. I know that you would be proud of her. I am not sure about Abbykat i am sure she is doing fine. Dad is doing good going to work everyday. He got us a new computer with his Christmas bonus. We talk a little more now than we use to. But he's doing good. Joey is doing good as well he quit smokeing. I know that would make you happy. And we do the best that we can amoung each other. and poor ole amy. We both talk about you alot. She misses you alot. This is her last week and her final is on wensday and pining thing is on thursday so just be with her and help her if you can to pass. She always thinks that you are with her when she takes her test. I told her that you probably were. She knew how important it was to you for me and her to go to school. And i know that you would be proud of both of us. But i have to go now mom i have to get ready for work.I'll be back as soon as i can. Just know that i love you and miss you so much more eachday. I love you
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Hey diana its me maggie i haven't posted in a while. I just wanted to write an tell you that we all miss you so very much an we wish you were still here with us. Me an jerry almost got our christmas shopping done an its getting closer everyday an its going to be so hard on christmas day not knowing that your not going to be down there when we go to open up gifts but we know that you will be around us watching an smileling. The boys are doing great an coy is talking a little better now well at least we can understand a few more words that he is saying an nicholas is going all over the house in the walker an crawling like a little worm across the floor. Jerry has been going under ground at work when ever they need him to an you know how much i hated that but thats his choice an thats what he wanted to do. He worries me to death until he gets home. Jerry is doing good an the rest of the family to. we love you so much diana its just so hard knowing that you are gone an not here with us. We know you are watching over us from above. An yeah you did scare me with that ballon if you were around i felt that you were an that made me feel good knowing you were here an around. I'm going to visit iris today god love her heart she talks about you all the time an i talk to her everyday an night she is such a wonderful person I love her to death. Well i guess im going to get off here an go back to bed its 7:00 in the morning. We love you so much an miss you so much so you just keep looking down on us all an watch over us all.
I got the kids a small tree, cause I felt bad for them, I am bah humbugging this year, no need to inflict my grief upon them I guess. I got a table top one to keep Abby from agravating me to death grabbing ornaments. Last year the cat agravated me with that, I am gonna outsmart this situation this year. I just wish this christmas deal was over with, same ole crap every year, worry, worry, worry. You worry about money to buy presents till you can't think anymore. I remember a particular year, when my mom couldn't afford to get us anything (there were countless of those). She cried and cried. I remember us kids wrapping up things we already had and giving it to one another as gifts. I took my bestest baby doll and gave it to my sister (which was probably the ONLY baby doll I had), I remember she was really happy with it. It wasn't the baby doll that made her happy, cause she played with that doll all the time anyways, I was all the time taking it from her, she was either cutting on it's hair, or trying to write on it with an ink pen, I remember strictly forbiding her to ever touch it again. It was the fact that I loved her enough to give it up, my prized posession to her. That was probably the best christmas I ever had. I miss the story swapping, you really understood about doing without, and how it just makes you a better person in the end. Makes you deal better with life, makes your stronger. I really do miss you.
hey diane, its me your favorite son-in-law, Amy passed her nursing class and went through her pinning ceremony today. we have all been a little emotional today because we knew that you would have loved to have been here in person. i know you was there in our hearts though. we are all proud of her and i must say i think if it wasnt for you i dont think she would have fought for it that hard. she was wearing those dolphin ear rings you give her right when ya first got sick... the ones you told her if she ever needed you to rub em... lol she was rubbing hte fire out of em today but she did good. everyone is doing fine down here well besides the fact they are missing you. its gonna be a small Christmas but we got the tree up. i hope that the family comes down here for Christmas like they did for Thanksgiving 'cause it only seems right... i know christmas was your favorite time of year... i remember when ya couldnt believe that i of all people didnt like christmas that much... but its not that i dont like christmas i just hate the fact that no one celebrates christmas for the right reasons. its not about gifts, money and all that house decorations crap. its really about Christ. being thankful that Jesus was born for us and eventually died for us. Its a time to get together with your family let them know you love em. its suppose to be a joyous accasion not stressed out like me and lisa have been and i am sure a lot more people have been over money and presents. i would love to have an old timey christmas where the only thing people get is a new tin cup or maybe a new pair of shoes and then everyone sit by the fire and tell stories and just love one another not for what they give ya for christmas but because they are family.... and that you are proud to have them in your life. well anyways diane i guess i should be going i just thought id write and tell ya that we had the tree up and amy is graduating this time. ;D. we all love ya diane and i hope that Jesus is throwing the best birthday party you have ever been too.