Hey love, it's been awhile... just wanted to let you know i'm still thinkin of you, and i still miss you like crazy. Things are so different now, so much has changed...I don't think you would much like what our world is becoming. Perhaps thats why God took you away when he did... I don't know. I really miss you, I've never been able to open up to anyone else, I can't talk to anyone the way I could talk to you. I swear, you were my concience...still are actually. Still to this day, I wonder if you'd be disapointed in me... I try to make choices that I think you'd be proud of... People probably think thats crazy tryin to please the dead... but it doesn't feel like your really gone, I think about you always, your always here in my heart, and I dream of you so vividly that I wake up expecting to see you here...I just wish I could heard your voice, I can't really remember it...and I think thats what hurts the most, the fear of forgetting the little things that made you, you. I love you baby girl, forever I will, even after I'm gone, I'll love you still...Good bye.
Hey love, so, today is your birthday. I'd like to say happy birthday, but honestly it's not a happy occassion anymore...all I want to do is cry, and I know you wouldn't want that so I'm trying to hold it together. I'm trying to pretend it's just another day, but obiously I'm not doing a good job, because here I am, typing and crying...I'm sorry baby girl. It's just I miss you so much and today is one of the days that make it even more obvious your not here, and it reminds me that it's only 13 days 'till the 7th... I cannot believe that it's gonna be 8 years, thats a long time to be without someone you love. Anyway, I'm sure you have had a good birthday in heaven with your mamma, I love you, good bye.