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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 9, 2014 17:26:34 GMT -5
Kyler just showed me ur Facebook last night and as bad as I hate to admit it I guess we had been not around each other that much anymore. When we were growing up I always wanted whatever you had if you wore black so did I, if you wore hills I tried to lol I just wanted to let you know there was no excuse for me not to have came around more often but I did call and text you quiet a bit. It's just we both had our own lives going and didn't get to see each other much but I sure wish I could do it all over because I never got to tell you how much I wanted to be just like you! You were so beautiful perfect hair skin nail everything and I really looked and still do look up to you. Do you know how much those boys brag on their mommy I hope I have that with my boys. I just want you to know I love you sissy and everytime I get one extra minute either on here or by texting or praying you will have all the time I missed with you over the last three or four years I miss you and I will see again one day and I promise you I will apologize a million times over for not spending every day telling you how perfect you were .... R.I.P sissy I love and miss you more and more every day........
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Post by Kayleigh / kk on Jan 11, 2014 12:39:05 GMT -5
Hey sis just want to bounce your name back up to the top so everyone can see it and remember you and let you know I love you so much I think of you everytime the wind blows and i hope your proud of everything I do to make sure I keep you happy I hope that when u see me you think like you always did about me as being your little cousin and see how much I love you although I told u before now u see that I really truly mean it I miss you and I need you here to support me but god needed you more I guess...
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Post by Kayleigh / kk on Jan 11, 2014 22:26:01 GMT -5
I'm going crazy all I can think about is you when I'm awake asleep All the time. I'm trying to hold it all together but inside I'm falling apart I don't even want to be here without you I feel so selfish that I'm here and your gone I feel like if the tables were turned you would do more and I don't know what to do to be there for you more than I am I miss you sis and I love you with all of my heart <3
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 12, 2014 23:19:12 GMT -5
I love and miss you so much
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 13, 2014 9:56:19 GMT -5
I adopted a portion of highway 80 for you today  now the spot where u left is now a spot of rememberance in more ways than one I love you |
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 15, 2014 11:38:51 GMT -5
Your sign got put up today I want to go see it but I'm already crying looking at your pictures the one of me and you when we were teenagers is just a constant reminder that I will never get to hug u again. But at the same time I see me with my big sister holding on the way I always will I'm going crazy but I got to try to be strong and look at the positives which are far and few between anymore but I know you wouldn't want me to be sad all the time so I try to play it off like I'm ok but I am numb inside I feel like a part of me is gone no one understands how close I was to you and now the shoulder I had to cry on and depend on to cheer me up isn't with me anymore I could call you and you always made me laugh no matter the situation you lived life a day at a time and didn't care what people thought about it. That's what made you sis lol u was ur own person that's for sure although we had small disagreements sometimes because we were so much alike they made us closer because we knew it was ridiculous and we loved each other and always took up for each other and I want you to know 50 years from now if I'm still here I will be telling my grandchildren about my crazy cousin and showing your pictures and explaining to them how like you told me before in the bible it says god takes the flower of the family and that that's why he took you. You were our flower! And now you are in heaven waiting to see us again I love you sis please know how much I love you. It just comes and goes with the depression but what stays with me is your memories ecspecially when gran was sick and in the hospital you called me crying and said “kk I'm worried about gran in the bible it says god will take the flower of the family and gran is so sweet kk she is our flower and I'm afriad something's going to happen to her" that was exactly what you said and who would have ever knew that the whole time you were the flower and that it was meant for you to tell me that go had it all planned out to let is know that you were our flower I love you sis
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 16, 2014 23:06:54 GMT -5
  I Love you sis!!!!! |
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 17, 2014 10:41:12 GMT -5
I miss you sis I'm just want you to know I'm still thinking of you and I love you. I really can't believe your gone. Kari got the paint for your cross and we are going to paint it this weekend and try to have it put up. Kyler is going to help us he wants everything pink! He knew pink was your favorite color. Please know you will never be forgotten you were only here 31 yrs but left an impression and memories of a lifetime I love you sis c u in heaven
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 19, 2014 20:11:50 GMT -5
I love you and miss you so much sis  |
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 20, 2014 21:23:33 GMT -5
Hey sis I just wanted to let you know how much I love you and miss you I am about to paint your cross. I love you !!!!! |
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 21, 2014 19:48:53 GMT -5
Another snowy depressing day I miss you sis this don't seem real
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 21, 2014 19:49:51 GMT -5
Another snowy depressing day I miss you sis this don't seem real
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 22, 2014 13:17:25 GMT -5
I love you sis...it still hurts me to see ur name and pictures but I will be ok eventually what hurts so bad is the sound of u saying stuff about the end of time and how u were afraid I love you sis it kills me to think of u hurting or being afraid I feel like u have had enough of that I miss you see u again one day
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 22, 2014 22:01:24 GMT -5
I was just thinkin about all the crazy things we have done and the messed up places we have been we sure were in some bad spots lol. I can't believe that out of all the s**t we have been through that you got killed Christmas shopping I guess that's how it goes when you least expect to loose someone that's when their gone. I thought I'd always have you to talk to and call and butch about my problems to and now your gone. But I still have your memories all of them even the bad ones like when I went with you to a party and u accidentally stuck a cigarette to my leg, or when I went with u and ended up with ppl trying to stab each other, and on the other hand the good ones like you putting my make up on, and letting me borrow your clothes so I could dress like you us laying out in the sun together bathing while you sit on the commode and talked to me lol. Showing me how to shave my legs you really are special to me you are the one I grew up looking up to even though sometimes I could have pulled your hair out for getting me into some of the spots we got into. You will never leave my mind I am sure you see how much influence you have had on me all I do is get in here and brag on you... But this is coming straight from my heart " I Love You Sis and I appreciate all the things you have done for me and I just want you to know everyone is entitled to their own opinion and from my eyes there is no one as good as you. You have been through a lot that's why you were so strong you were an angel and now you will finally have your wings" I want you to make sure of one more thing for me when something happens to me the way I picture it is you coming to get me so I can be with you and not be afraid will you do that for me because I don't fear death when I think of it like that I actually feel ok. I know I will see you and you will let me know it's ok you have always looked out for me and now I feel like you can watch me even closer. I love you and I can't wait to see you again ... |
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 25, 2014 18:35:43 GMT -5
Sis I love you and miss you last night I couldn't sleep for thinking about you in that casket. That's the first time that I remembered you that way. And it was hard to bare ! I guess you know I haven't been goin to church lately I'm angry I'm hurt!!! And I'm Afraid of whats coming next. I just want you to know I love you and I miss you!!!!
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 26, 2014 12:40:43 GMT -5
<3..<3 I LOVE YOU <3..<3
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 26, 2014 19:48:57 GMT -5
It only hurts when I'm awake so I try to sleep the pain away I miss you!
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 26, 2014 20:36:27 GMT -5
"Never Gonna Be Alone"
[Verse 1]
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...
[Chorus]
You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall...
You're never gonna be alone
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
[Verse 2]
And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...
[Chorus]
You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
[Verse 3]
Oh!
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes...
[Verse 4]
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
[Chorus]
You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day,
I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day. I miss you sissy
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 26, 2014 20:37:02 GMT -5
"Never Gonna Be Alone"
[Verse 1]
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not spending all of it with you.
Now I'm, wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside,
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...
[Chorus]
You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall...
You're never gonna be alone
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
[Verse 2]
And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands,
'Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you,
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know...
[Chorus]
You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
[Verse 3]
Oh!
You've gotta live every single day,
Like it's the only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one, you know it's only just begun.
Every single day,
Maybe our only one, what if tomorrow never comes?
Tomorrow never comes...
[Verse 4]
Time, is going by, so much faster than I,
And I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
[Chorus]
You're never gonna be alone
From this moment on, if you ever feel like letting go,
I won't let you fall.
When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on.
We're gonna see the world out,
I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone.
I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day,
I'm gonna be there always,
I won't be missing one more day. I miss you sissy
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Post by Kayleigh/kk on Jan 30, 2014 10:05:57 GMT -5
I love and miss you
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now the spot where u left is now a spot of rememberance in more ways than one I love you